I am writing. Really.

[brainofck]

...but when you post in your RL journal about the victory of trimming your toenails, you gotta think that the writing might be going slowly... :)

But weirdly enough, I realized that the big problem is that I'm trying to write the gender!bender happy ending, and I'm having trouble even getting Daniel to turn gay. NO idea how hard it's gonna be to get Jack to cooperate.

*peers at Brain*

My brain has never had trouble suspending its disbelief before. Maybe because this who story has been all about Daniel's self-identity, and now I'm trying to get his self-identity to do something that I can't convince myself is realistic?

Anyway, I'm committed to getting this stupid happy ending done, as well as the tragic!Daniel ending, which will involve the same machinations. It'll come to me in some way that works. I'm sure of it.

In less annoying writing news, I accidentally dated my story. I prefer my J/D stories to be vague about the when, but basically to be pre-Ascension unless Ascension plays an important role in the plot. So now I have to revisit a scene and do it a different way. Therefore, you can have the benefit of the smut-that-will-never-be.



All in all, it was good to be back to normal again. Daniel had adapted. Made certain adjustments, but in general, his female body had never felt really like himself, and just being able to pee standing up again made him happier than he would ever have expected.

And women got him hot again. Just as an experiment, he brought The L Word up on On Demand one night. With luck, he had caught one of their steamier episodes. No less than four hot lesbian fuck sessions.

He tried not to read anything into the fact that the hottest one was the pretty trannie with the strap on doing her lipstick ex-girlfriend by the side of the pool.

The point was that with all those lovely female parts on the screen, he literally masturbated himself into oblivion. He woke up hours later, well after midnight, with a crick in his neck, an abused and raw dick, and dried up cum on his shirt where he had wiped his hand between sessions. He was so happy he wished he could call someone and tell them how hot lesbian sex was.

He couldn't think of anyone who would appreciate a call like that from him at 1:30am on a Tuesday night. So he had a shower, a good long standing-up pee, and went to bed.

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One More Only! I promise!

[mresundance.livejournal.com]

And dude.

I read Jack as totally having the repressed hots for Daniel even before the switch, and that ended up being part of Jack's problem. He was hung up on boy Daniel but could not act on it, for whatever reason, maybe just that whole "I can't like a guy, I'm in the military, I dig women, etc"; then Daniel's a girl which is confusing and he could act on what he was feeling, but then feels all confused because he's like, well, I liked old Daniel as much or more, and it's like cheating in the sense that it saves him from admitting the full breadth of his feelings, or is it, or what is it, or fuck this shit man.

Poor Jack. He's got it worse than Daniel.

At least have some good sex in the end, or promise of good sex. Maybe.

Re: One More Only! I promise!

[brainofck.livejournal.com]

See, for me, Jack's place in this has always been really straightforward. He's not secretly longing for Daniel. They are the best friends in the way that best friends are best friends. Really. Not interested in sex with each other. Not interested in kissing or anything else. Just valuing each other's company and understanding each other and turing to each other in crisis, the way friends do. Trusting each other.

So then Daniel changes, and suddenly, Jack's attracted to this woman, who is also Daniel, and that's not right. Daniel's supposed to be Daniel, his best friend, not a canidate for romance and everything that goes with that. Plus, Jack is hoping that Daniel will not stay a woman, but turn back into "himself." So how can Jack let down the barriers that might let him consider that Daniel as a woman is a possibility to be welcomed? Romance with you best friend. Physical intimacy to go with the spiritual. All the good stuff rolled into one package. But not for the taking, because doing that because then he has to give up on his old friend, Daniel the man, in order to reache out and take Daniel the woman.

Then he gives in, lets Daniel persuade him that they can be more, and then he is faced with what he wanted to happen all along, getting his "real" friend back.

So Jack *also* has a decision to make. Does he try something he would never have considered before, and approach his relationship with Daniel in a romantic context, outside of Jack's straight world view, or does he decide it was all about Daniel the woman, and this new view of Daniel has no place in his life. Happy ending says, Jack reaches out.

And I now think I know what to do to push him over the edge to admitting it. Gotta love the commute home from work for inspiration! :D

Re: One More Only! I promise!

[mresundance.livejournal.com]

OOOOOOOH, now Jack makes a WHOLE lot of sense now that you've explained it. And I like how you have him. That makes a LOT of sense to me.

And oooh, commute inspirations! Yay. *claps paws in anticipation*

Happy ending happy ending!

We all know Jack is fully capable of change and growth, even if he is a surly ol' bastard sometimes.