What I am thinking about right now

"If I weren't so caught up in the super-macho, homophobic bullshit that the Air Force thinks it needs to carry out its mission, maybe it wouldn't have taken me years to figure out that I want you as much as I want her. No wonder we can't be civil to each other half the time. It's not just different world views or the strain of balancing our conflicting professional missions. We're not just best friends or brothers-in-arms or any of that crap. We're lovers who never get any and it makes us pissy as hell."